Sorry I have not blogged for quite some time. We have had a lot of family trials lately. Jaisha has a special bond with my mother whom she calls Nana, and Nana unexpecidely passed away at home on December 3, 2008. So my life has been a roller coaster of emotions. I hurt so much for Jaisha and for her loss and for her somewhat lack of understanding.
Although in the same respect I have to share with you some of the really great things she said the few days following her passing. On the evening of her passing Jaisha cried, wailed and shook not understanding and mourning. The next day I asked her if she missed Nana and she said "no, she is with her sister (whom also passed away 2 years ago).
That night while we were laying in bed she said "mom, I asked Nana what she missed the most and she said her sister, so mom I let her go" that send chills throughout my body. My mom was diagnosed with polio at a young age and had many struggles with her physical body throughout her life and my step dad said one of the only things keeping mom on this earth was Jaisha. So I guess Jaisha gave her permission in their own way to pass to heaven.
A couple of days later she said "mom Nana came and got me and took me to where she lived with her sister when she was little" I tried to question her further because my mom has not driven for years and she replied "mom you don't understand she just came and got me".
I have to believe and truly want to believe that the veil is thin for our youngsters who are so special and this has helped Jaisha heal as well as many of our other family members.
The funeral was special Jaisha spoke on her special relationship with her Nana and I was very proud of her, then at the cemetery we all released blue balloons to heaven since blue was Nana's favorite color.
I told Jaisha when ever she misses Nana we can go and get a blue balloon and she it to heaven with our hugs and kisses.
Other than that Jaisha had eye surgery in October for the second time and life has been a tad bit crazy.
I want to thank all of you who follow this blog and email me with your support. I love you all!
Shanda
Nana's Obit.
Cynthia Pearl Pino Farrell Cynthia Pearl Pino Farrell
Cynthia Pearl Farrell was born on February 8, 1956 to Joseph Peter Pino and Theresa Southam Pino. Cindy passed away at home on Wednesday December 3, 2008.
Cindy is survived by her husband Bruce Farrell of Spanish Fork, her daughter Shanda Ross of Orem her son Kade Farrell of Kearns her granddaughter Jaisha Ross of Orem, brothers Eric and Joey Pino of Salt Lake and several nieces and nephews.
Cindy married Jack Nyman together they had Shanda, they later divorced. Cindy then met her soul mate and the love of her life Bruce they were married on February 8, 1985. Together they were blessed with a son Kade.
Cindy had an unexplainable relationship with her granddaughter Jaisha they were two peas in a pod and were one of the most important things in each others lives spending countless hours together making memories. Jaisha loved her Nana!
Cindy was most known for her ceramics and porcelain studio where she made many life long friends and had the ability to express and share her talent with many people.
Cindy was diagnosed with polio at a young age and was strong throughout her life dealing with the many effects associated with it. We as her family are happy to know she is no longer experiencing the pain of her physical body and she is reunited with her family members.
A viewing will be held on Monday December 8, 2008 from 6 - 8:00 p.m. at Walker Mortuary, 187 S. Main Street, Spanish Fork. The funeral will be held on Tuesday December 9, 2008 at 10:00 a.m. at the Canyon View Stake Center 989 South 2550 East Spanish Fork with a viewing beginning at 9:00. Burial will take place in Midway.
As a family we ask you wear something blue as it was her favorite color.
Jaisha's Story
My little angel had quite a rough start in this big old world. When Jaisha was 9 days old I was rocking her when I noticed the color in her face fade to a pale gray. I immediately rushed her to the pediatricians office. That day began a roller coster of adventures (which I can call them now).
When the physician came into the room she immediately took Jaisha out of my arms and said she was having a seizure, she was rushed down to the emergency room (looking back good thing her doctors office was in a hospital).
Once in the ER the doctor did a spinal tap, when she stuck that huge needle in Jaisha's back she didn't even cry she was lifeless laying there. The doctor said we were going to have to Life Flight her to Primary Children's Hospital in Salt Lake City if she could not stabilize her, however she luckily did and she was rushed via ambulance instead.
That night was one of the worst yet inspirational days of my life. On the ride up to the hospital I kept thinking to myself "oh a seizure, no big deal they can fix that" well I could not have been more wrong.
Once checked in, I called a friend of mine in our LDS ward and asked if someone could come up and give Jaisha a blessing for health. About 5 minutes after I hung up the telephone two LDS Missionaries came into the room to see if anyone needed a blessing. You don't have to be super religious or even be of the LDS faith to think that is a little coincidental.
However, things got worse for my little angel, she was losing her grasp on life that night, she could not hold her oxygen saturation's and had to be placed on life support in a medically induced coma.
Test after test came back negative, the spinal tap was normal, the cat scan normal, the heart tests normal. The second day there I got my answer after the MRI. The doctor told me my daughter had encephalitis of unknown ideology which is a fancy term for inflammation in the brain. They explained to me that when the brain gets an infection it causes inflammation which in turn creates small holes in your brain tissue and leaves residual damage. They told me 1/3 of her brain was inflamed and most likely she would be so severely mentally handicapped she would need to have to reside in a residential treatment center for care.
That night I prayed harder than I ever have in my entire life, I prayed it was me instead I asked God why. I have to say looking back I had this strange sense of calm which I refused to accept because I was so scared but God was answering my prayers he was telling me it was all right and to have blind faith.
Jaisha had several blessings from family and friends over the course of our hospital stay and it seemed after each one she got better and better and finally a week into her coma the doctors decided they would attempt to take her out of the coma and off life support to see if she could hold her own, and you know what she did.
On the 10th day of our hospital stay another MRI was preformed and I had this strange feeling the doctors were going to come out and tell me it was a miracle all of the damage / inflammation was gone. Ok, so I was not so lucky but then again yes I was, they came back to tell me all inflammation was gone except for a small amount in her frontal lobes. I was excited and saddened at the same time.
The doctors could not tell me her long term prognosis instead they told me they have never seen a case like Jaisha's and I would tell them how she is doing.
Well that was almost 7 years ago, and I admit to this day writing that brought back a flood of emotion and made it feel like yesterday. I can still see myself and feel the same emotions I felt sitting next to her in ICU not leaving that room for anything or anyone.
Over the next several years Jaisha progressed normally meeting all of her milestones with no residual issues, she crawled, walked talked and did everything she was supposed too.
Just when I was putting it all behind me and closing that chapter of life another one opened. In July 2007 by a fluke Jaisha was diagnosed with Asperger's by a friend who is a psychologist. I was devastated at the news but decided to read up on the disorder. It hit me smack in the face, it answered so many questions. Everything I read was my daughter, I always thought she was a little bit different but I just thought she was unique and was not worried about it.
Jaisha has trouble socially, she is obsessive compulsive and is a little young for her age, yet she has a memory of an elephant.
Instead of being burdened by the diagnosis I decided to educate myself and other and become and advocate for her. I have learned I will not let Autism define who she is as an individual, instead I will embrace each characteristic and realize those are the things that make her so unique and exceptional!
I am fully committed to Autism Awareness and advocating for my sweet daughter! With that being said I am pleading for donations to her Walk Now for Autism team / Jaunt for Jaisha!
If you are able or willing to donate please follow the link below to make your tax deductible dontation. Please help me help my little girl.
http://www.walknowforautism.org/utah/jauntforjaisha
When the physician came into the room she immediately took Jaisha out of my arms and said she was having a seizure, she was rushed down to the emergency room (looking back good thing her doctors office was in a hospital).
Once in the ER the doctor did a spinal tap, when she stuck that huge needle in Jaisha's back she didn't even cry she was lifeless laying there. The doctor said we were going to have to Life Flight her to Primary Children's Hospital in Salt Lake City if she could not stabilize her, however she luckily did and she was rushed via ambulance instead.
That night was one of the worst yet inspirational days of my life. On the ride up to the hospital I kept thinking to myself "oh a seizure, no big deal they can fix that" well I could not have been more wrong.
Once checked in, I called a friend of mine in our LDS ward and asked if someone could come up and give Jaisha a blessing for health. About 5 minutes after I hung up the telephone two LDS Missionaries came into the room to see if anyone needed a blessing. You don't have to be super religious or even be of the LDS faith to think that is a little coincidental.
However, things got worse for my little angel, she was losing her grasp on life that night, she could not hold her oxygen saturation's and had to be placed on life support in a medically induced coma.
Test after test came back negative, the spinal tap was normal, the cat scan normal, the heart tests normal. The second day there I got my answer after the MRI. The doctor told me my daughter had encephalitis of unknown ideology which is a fancy term for inflammation in the brain. They explained to me that when the brain gets an infection it causes inflammation which in turn creates small holes in your brain tissue and leaves residual damage. They told me 1/3 of her brain was inflamed and most likely she would be so severely mentally handicapped she would need to have to reside in a residential treatment center for care.
That night I prayed harder than I ever have in my entire life, I prayed it was me instead I asked God why. I have to say looking back I had this strange sense of calm which I refused to accept because I was so scared but God was answering my prayers he was telling me it was all right and to have blind faith.
Jaisha had several blessings from family and friends over the course of our hospital stay and it seemed after each one she got better and better and finally a week into her coma the doctors decided they would attempt to take her out of the coma and off life support to see if she could hold her own, and you know what she did.
On the 10th day of our hospital stay another MRI was preformed and I had this strange feeling the doctors were going to come out and tell me it was a miracle all of the damage / inflammation was gone. Ok, so I was not so lucky but then again yes I was, they came back to tell me all inflammation was gone except for a small amount in her frontal lobes. I was excited and saddened at the same time.
The doctors could not tell me her long term prognosis instead they told me they have never seen a case like Jaisha's and I would tell them how she is doing.
Well that was almost 7 years ago, and I admit to this day writing that brought back a flood of emotion and made it feel like yesterday. I can still see myself and feel the same emotions I felt sitting next to her in ICU not leaving that room for anything or anyone.
Over the next several years Jaisha progressed normally meeting all of her milestones with no residual issues, she crawled, walked talked and did everything she was supposed too.
Just when I was putting it all behind me and closing that chapter of life another one opened. In July 2007 by a fluke Jaisha was diagnosed with Asperger's by a friend who is a psychologist. I was devastated at the news but decided to read up on the disorder. It hit me smack in the face, it answered so many questions. Everything I read was my daughter, I always thought she was a little bit different but I just thought she was unique and was not worried about it.
Jaisha has trouble socially, she is obsessive compulsive and is a little young for her age, yet she has a memory of an elephant.
Instead of being burdened by the diagnosis I decided to educate myself and other and become and advocate for her. I have learned I will not let Autism define who she is as an individual, instead I will embrace each characteristic and realize those are the things that make her so unique and exceptional!
I am fully committed to Autism Awareness and advocating for my sweet daughter! With that being said I am pleading for donations to her Walk Now for Autism team / Jaunt for Jaisha!
If you are able or willing to donate please follow the link below to make your tax deductible dontation. Please help me help my little girl.
http://www.walknowforautism.org/utah/jauntforjaisha
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Shanda,
You are an inspiration and so is Jaisha. There are many special women and children in this world and you two are definitely part of them.
I wanted to share with you something about my son and my grandmother. She has been ill for a long time now and is slowly fading. She won't let go. She suffers and hurts. But, she just can't let go. My mother was talking to her one day about not letting go and my grandmother said, "I don't want to leave my Joey." She loves my son. And after reading what Jaisha said about her grandmother and letting her go, I had to share that with you.
Kim
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